Feeling Emotional Again

2 days na lang at birthday na ni Masheng ko! Ang bilis bilis ng panahon! (I've been saying this for almost a hundred time na ata!).

Naaalala ko pa, it was exactly last year when I had the first sign na malapit na akong manganak! (I had the "bloody show" here in the office). Akala ko nga matatagalan pa, kasi sinabi ng OB ko that very day (or the day before ata) na aabutin pa ng 1 week since hindi pa daw ripe ang cervix ko ... ayun, the next day, sumasakit na 'yung tyan at nagtuloy tuloy na nga ... (ironic, kasi I was supposed to have my baby shower 'dun sa mismong araw at oras ng panganganak ko! sayang, hindi natuloy, but I got all their gifts pa rin naman, hehe!). Check out my "Giving Birth Story" na lang ... masyadong mahaba para magkwento ulit, hehe!

I also wanna share the very first letter that I wrote for my li'l girl. I wrote just days bago ko siya inire (hehe) ... feeling nostalgic and emotional lang ang mommy today kasi naman isang araw na lang at 'di na sanggol ang baby ko ...

How I miss my li'l fragile Masheng! But of course, I'm also looking forward for having a little toddler. I'm very excited to train and teach her a lot of new things and I know that we'll be doing and sharing a lot of wonderful and new experiences together...

To baby Juliana Marchelle Amelie,

Thanks for coming into our life. You are our little miracle sent to us from up above. We waited for quite a long time. God just knew that we would be the ones for you to love so I want to thank Him for giving you to us, for choosing us as your Mommy and Daddy to be.

I also want to thank you for giving me the most wonderful pregnancy that any mom could ever hope for. I never imagined that this journey could be so remarkable. Now, that it’s about to end, I want you to know that I really cherish and that I will continue to harbor each and every moment that you stayed within me throughout my child bearing days. I know it’s odd but despite all the pains, nausea and morning sickness, cramps, sleepless nights, moodiness, etc… that I’ve experienced for almost 9 months, I just feel that I will really miss those days of bearing you. Especially, I will miss all the kicks and turns, as you toss and move in my belly, that never fails to thrill and delight us, especially me.

But of course, I cannot be pregnant with you forever. Now, it’s almost time to let you go. A few weeks and days from now, we will finally meet you. Me and you father are really both very excited! We cannot wait for the moment that we could finally touch and hold you into our arms. Lots of other people are anticipating for your arrival. The world waits to see you. But just take your time sweetie, and come meet us when you are good and ready. I’m feeling nervous, you know it’s my first time, you are our very first angel. I know you’re nervous, too, but don’t worry my dear, I believe that everything will turn out fine. No one can harm you; mom will do everything to protect her little Marchelle. Just be patient and be brave my dear, we’ll be with each other soon.

We will wait ever so patiently to see your loving face and to feel your warmth as we nurture you with so much love and affection. We want you to know that we will love you and hold you from now until the end of time.

Love,

Mama

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